I have always been shy growing up, but once I started acting that changed. It was like a crack showed up in a shell, and you could kinda see the person inside.
Growing up I was made fun of a lot because I was homeschooled and my friends thought I was stupid and lame. When I tried talking to people at church activites I found that once I said I was homeschooled thy would stop talking with me and turn their back. So when I got older and tried metting new friends I would hold back. Infact I didnt want to talk to anyone, I would go to activities and sit in the corner and read a book, you would ask me a question and I would give you a yes or no.
This went on for years, and just recently I realized what was going on, so I decided to change it. In the past week I have gotten to know more people in a week then I have in a year. And I'm not saying this doesnt work for every one, but if you make up your mind to stop hidding then you will make new friends and be happier.
The way I changed was I stopped sitting in the corner, I talked and introduced myself to people I didnt know, I stopped bringing up the fact that I'm homeschooled (not that I'm not proud of being homeschooled it was just a fact I didnt bring up.) I stopped saying things that might offend people or that people might think I'm weird for. (not that I not being myself now, I'm jus toning down on how much i have done, enless they ask.)
Before I felt like a really big show off and snobb, and now I feel like myself, yes there are still times when I want to curl up in a ball and die (like last night) but I have had a lot more fun.
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